March = Fast

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 It's 19 March of 2021 oh my God I'm still processing the last march and here we are, I'm almost wasting the three months of 2021 haha, hope you guys not do that.




Let me tell you a story, I meet this guy on 2018. 


September 2018, but online HAHA, we never meet personally face to face. We naturally never in deep convo or something serious or much time to just chit-chat something important, we don't spent that much time together just to do that, but easy to say we never in that lost contact, because the contact is still the same HAHAHAHAHAH.




Then, suddenly he is contacting again, in the middle of time I try to move on from someone whose ghosting me until now (omfg is he okay? I kinda worry about him and hate him too haha idk)


We're having 2 hours conversation via telephone (idk idk idk is I'm okay is I'm sane?)


The time when we're having convo, I'm thinking of someone else ;'( someone whose ghosting me


I always think what if this convo is me and you?


How are you? Are you okay? Healthy?


I miss you


That always come to my mind


But it's 19 March and I kinda forgetting about him, and you know my head is full of the September Man ;'(


Is I'm that easy to fallin' love? But the kind of heartbreak that I already feel on December until March? Am I not talking a lesson from that or what? And he really someone who I can't reach




Please SLAP ME!! I'M TIRED OF HAVING THIS FEELING TO SOMEONE WHOSE NOT FOR ME.


unlike it's public figure it's okay, because fangirling is the happiest time. 




Please can someone love me and I love him too and we can through this world together, why he came when we simply can't be together? Whyyy




Dear God please, I'm happy with him too but, If we can't be together just don't make this far, I already attached to him, but if we can't be together what's the point? Huhuhuhuhu I don't know how to say but still I don't know


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