2021 please be happy

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 It's 2021 everyone!!!! Happy New Year!!!!

I know I must be starting it with energetically happy but, I feel so lonely right now ;'( hiks I hate myself T_T


I know you guys what you doing kkk~ this blog didn't have any viewers so, I will be tell everything in this blog heheh, I don't know, but sometimes I feel that I must be throwing up all my feelings and my real feel that I always hide from everyone, but in here I feel can tell everything and not worry about everyone think like I always do kkk~ so, I feel so sadly lonely, I don't have someone in my side, didn't have shoulder to lean on, didn't have someone to tell how was my day, I feel I really can't do this all alone, yes here I am, alone. Furthermore, I always pray that I will survive in this, I'll not be to lose my hope that I can do it all by myself, and someone will be to come here for me, and I'm here for him to :'( then I'll be smashing that good vibe with, when? I really feel that I suck, I feel miserable, I hate myself to feel that I can't do it all alone, I always encourage myself that I can, but why can't I, why I must be to feel that I need someone, and if that is something must, why not now? I really want someone with me for right now, but where is he? I'm- ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ


I hate it


So let happy even tho it's start with miserable thing kkk~


I watch Soul yesterday and I cried of course, that's so beautiful, and I promised to myself for making this life more meaningful than before, I always sad and lonely before and not admit it lying it with I'm okay I'm okay I'm okay, even though I'm not, so from now on, I will admit that I'm not okay, and it's okay, that's a life, it's alright to feel anything like that, but I feel happy too, because we're born for something, even tho you didn't have any purpose, any spark that you're dying for, but being alive is beautiful, God already give it to us, so lets happy, we can do this, we can survive this, this will be pass soon, even though life isn't that good, but here we are, is okay even tho we're all alone, we have God, God is always there for us, so bismillahirrahmanirrahim we can through it fighting!!!



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